Just a warning...it's a long one!
This morning, we had a medical emergency in church. I'm still not exactly sure what happened, but it made for an exciting morning.
The upside of the emergency was that we got to see church members jump to action. I was a little surprised by exactly how many nurses and EMT's we have at our 9:30 service. If you're going to have a medical emergency, it's a good place to be.
The downside? It occurred right at the beginning of Pastor Doug's message. It was a topic he's covered many times before, and one that continues to be timely. While I was looking forward to hearing it, the little bit he did get to was enough to really get me thinking...
Wants versus needs.
Two things I happen to spend a lot of time focusing on.
Two things that tend to keep me up at night.
Two things I believe a lot of people are truly learning the difference between for the first time.
When we moved to Central Florida nearly five years ago so that Tom could take a new ministry position, we took a pay cut equal to about 20% of our annual income. It's a decision that I still stand by completely. We knew we needed to be in a place that was healthier for our family...but more importantly, Tom needed to be serving in a church that fully supported him and recognized his gifts and abilities. We've been blessed with both of those things and many more since God called us here. In two and a half years (God willing), Tom will have his Master's of Divinity and we will have no school loan debt. That alone is worth that 20% loss in income many times over.
Living on that lower income wasn't easy but we did it.
Two years later, we bought a house and budgeting went from something I haphazardly did to a necessity. That smaller income got a lot smaller with a mortgage coming out of it.
I've been blessed to be able to create and sell scrapbook layouts on eBay for the last four years. Being able to fulfill my creative needs and earn some extra money while staying home to serve my family has been wonderful.
Last Spring, God called us to homeschool and we answered.
Just like so much of the rest of the economy, the scrapbook industry has suffered.
Combine those two issues, and that budget that was a necessity has become a bit of an obsession. I have less time to create...and what I do create doesn't sell for as much as it did last year.
We are doing more with less on a daily basis, and we're going to find new ways to do it when we have to start paying for my insurance next year (something that had been previously covered by Tom's employer).
Is it stressful?
Yes.
Can we do it?
Yes, I think we can.
It will take some more creativity, some hard work and a new trust in the Lord, but we will make it.
Over the last four and a half years, we've watched our income have to stretch to nearly impossible limits. At the same time, we have grown closer and stronger as a family.
We have learned what truly matters.
We know that happiness doesn't come from designer handbags, brand names, fancy cars or new furniture. It comes from being together, playing together, learning together.
People and relationships are so much more important than things.
Taking that opportunity to direct and engage in the kids' education is
worth so much more than the income I've lost because time constraints and homeschooling.
We have learned to value the things we do have, and to prioritize our needs over our wants.
We have discovered that our wants aren't nearly as necessary as we tend to think they are, and that our needs aren't as many as we had once thought.
We have seen God provide through family and friends at just the right time...over and over and over and in truly amazing ways.
We have learned to seek and to follow God, and have come to fully understand that He will never, ever lead us astray.
We have learned to trust Him in ways I never knew possible.
It's been a difficult few years and I know this season of trial isn't over yet. As stressful as it can be, I am thankful for this time. Our priorities as a family and as members of the body of Christ have been shaped by these struggles. I pray that when our finances are in a healthier place, we'll continue to live the same principles and priorities that we do now. Someday, my goal is to still live on less so that we can leverage more for God's kingdom.
Contentment is a choice - a daily, sometimes hourly, choice to live where you truly are. It is acknowledging God's sovereignty and His plan.
I choose contentment.
The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.
1 John 2:17